shwing

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Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
And if we go down, we go down together
best friends means, well best friends means

And I've got a twenty-dollar bill
that says you're up late night starting
fist fights versus fences in your backyard
Wearing your black eye like a badge of honor
Soaking in sympathy
from friends who never loved you
nearly half as much as me

Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable

Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
If we go down, we go down together
best friends means, well best friends means

You never knew
well i never told you...
Everything I know about breaking hearts
I learned from you, it's true
I've never done it with the style and grace you have
But I've made long term plans
based on these mistakes

Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable

Is this what you call tact?
I swear you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
so let's end this call,
and end this conversation
there's nothing worse... 
I swear, you have no idea
The jealousy that became me thinking
that you always had it way too easy

Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable

Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve

hi.  right now im not doing anything...

but yeahhh i realize the pictures on the last entry dont show up... if i had my DAMN COMPUTER back then i'll fix it but whatever. i need it back.

sooo.  life's been cool.  k bye. 

i am in love! thats right. 

my babies. 

so ive been here for a little while now.  i miss the little things like laughing uncontrollably about absolutely nothing with my best friend in the world. 

im sick to my stomach because i miss HER so much.
(the baby not jessica)
theres not much more to say.  theres always somebody else who said it better than you before so....

i fall asleep with my friends around me
only place i know, i feel safe
im gonna call this home
the open road is still miles away
hey nothing serious,
we still have our fun, oh we had it once

windows open and close
thats just how it goes

... you should see the canals are freezing
you should see me high
                   you should just be here
             be with me here
it doesnt seem theres hope for me
i let you down
         but i wont give in now, not for any amount

you say that love goes anywhere
in your darkest time, its just enough to know its there.

ah tuesday. ben chris and jessica came to my house early in the morning to have the last goodbyes. it was great i love them.  the plane ride was actually really good. then had people come over when i got home and had a party which was reallllyyy fun.

well this week has been so good.  i feel like a new person... in a good way.  my mom and i have been getting along and nothing has changed between me and my friends. UGH. im really happy. i got a lot planned as well.

theres still a lot of people i didnt see yet.

i miss jessica and ben by far the most. mm this is going to be a good year.

bah i have a lotttt to say. a lot.  just about everything there is to to talk about. god.  i probably wont update for a while though.
call me if you i dk want to hang out. just do it. 214 636 3191

kkk. bye.

its been a while. summer's okay. but it feels like im slowly getting closure from my friends which is torture. i want to spend every waking minute with them but ive been home for a while now.  i have no idea where everyone is but at least they have something to do. eh. byeeeeeee

oh, my dearest friend
tidle waves couldnt even bring me down
standing with my feet settled on one place
i finished climbing to get to you
lift yourself as your gone for the moment
far from any reaching hand
I'm leaving but can't you still stand?
the rocks are falling but you define gravity
the worlds are colliding yet you stand firm
get your mind out of the clouds
as you can't drift off to the stars right now
the good things are leaving your side
the memories will start to fade
you'll think back and turn on the lights
will someone be there?
oh, my dearest friend
i know the walls are falling
the gaps in the floors are growing
but dont fill the holes with saddness
razors and roses filled with red
beautiful distinguishment of the real world
pain yet beauty within everything you see
I'm glad to say you know which is best
deep inside your hurt yet your glowing
dig your way out from the secluding dirt
with the paths infront of you now
and the mountain you defeated under you
let yourself be happy and define life
Even when I'm gone, I'll be there always
Forgive me now, its easier to forget
oh, my dearest friend

free your soul and let the blood run fast
enjoy yourself and let the good things last
for now is bliss and next is sorrow
the love you feel may be gone tomorrow

one week. bye.